All change

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In the last few weeks, I have been working hard. There have been orders to complete, ideas to get down on paper, events to attend and decisions to make.

One of those decisions has been to bite the bullet and move house. Honestly? We grew out of our first home years ago but made the decision to stay where we were because it seemed easier. We didn’t have to worry about sprucing up the place, packing stuff away and chucking things out.

Saying that, now we have made that decision, whilst it is challenging with two children under 6, it is liberating. It feels like a supercharged spring clean! Jobs we have put of for longer than I care to admit to are suddenly done – and they’re a lot less hassle than I’d imagined.

The process is stressful and while we are moving ahead, I couldn’t do it all without the help of my family who have been fab – not just at helping out but at bolstering me when I’m having the odd wobble and feeling overwhelmed.

It is a time of change but despite the odd freak out (after all moving house is one of the top ten most stressful things you can do) I am feeling hopeful. It is a time of new beginnings, of possibility and excitement.

Who knows where our dream house may be! 🙂

Until next time,

Toni xx

Failing to prepare….preparing to fail

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So here we are in June. I don’t know about you but I am seriously wondering where the time has gone since New Year. It doesn’t seem two minutes since we were celebrating the New Year and the possibilities and hope that comes with it.

It’s been a lovely six months where Dollies is concerned. Having my youngest in 2012 meant I didn’t touch my work or page for well over a year. I was unwell and overwhelmed by the culture shock that is suddenly having two children. Not the best business practice but I just couldn’t do it – and everyday I beat myself up about it. This year has felt like a new start – I have developed my fan base, networked, developed my products and began preparing.

Preparing for what you may be asking. For me, in life, I usually aim to prepare yet being a person who completes things when there is the pressure of a deadline I have a tendency to procrastinate.

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It’s not good. It doesn’t make me feel good but I’m learning that maybe I do it subconsciously because it allows me to criticise myself once again. If I was achieving, if I was ahead of schedule and working hard I would have to congratulate myself – something which doesn’t always come easily to me.

But….as they say, failing to prepare is preparing to fail. I am slowly breaking the habits of a lifetime and moving forward.

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I am sketching new ideas, preparing material, cutting shapes and creating items. I am making a start on Christmas orders and festive ideas.

Despite this preparation, I am finding there’s a part of me who wants to run with it all. I want to sign up for every craft fair, say yes to every opportunity and sew, sew, sew. I am pulled by my creativity and yet I am anchored by real life. I am anchored by reality – by motherhood, by the need to move house, by my day job.

So at the moment I am preparing and finding a balance. I am feeling all the things those actions bring: excitement, frustration, happiness and despondency. As much as I want to run ahead, I am (yet again) trying to be patient and reminding myself that everything will fall into place when the time is right.

Until next time,

Toni x